I just realized my blog has suffered from lack of attention in the past couple of months. Poor thing. So, I've decided to look over my online journal from 2014 (in which I "meditated" my way through Psalms and Proverbs) and share a little nugget of wisdom from each month.
January 1, 2014: I'm trying to picture me going outside every day, finding a spot to
sit (or stand) for a few minutes, and trying to capture with words what I
see, hear, or feel in those moments. My purpose would be to simply slow
down and savor the moment - be fully in the moment. I guess I could do
that in the house, also. - To delight in the Lord's perfections - To meditate in his temple (from Psalm 27).
(Did I do that? No, but it sounds good, doesn't it?)
February 1, 2014: Psalm 93:1b states, "The world stands firm and cannot be shaken." We might
experience its quaking and fear that California will fall into the
ocean, but when we know the bigger story, we don't have to fear. This,
of course, is true not only for the physical earth, but for all that is
happening in the spirit world - in our hearts and minds.
March 3, 2014: I have never given up anything for Lent, but this year I'm thinking, oh ... maybe ... how about housework?!
(Actually, I gave up cookies.)
April 3, 2014: (Are you ready for a long one? I can't resist sharing Psalm 23.)
The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. (ahh. relax)
He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. (ahh. relax)
He renews my strength. (as I rest and let the peaceful streams speak to me)
He
guides me along the right paths, bringing honor to his name. (God is in
control, and what I am going through is bringing honor to him.)
Even when I walk through the darkest valley (remember, God is in control)
I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. (ahh. relax)
Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. (I'm safe in God's care)
You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. (not just enough, but a feast!)
You honor me by anointing my head with oil, (why in the world would God honor me?!)
My cup overflows with blessings. (not just a few, but overflowing!)
Surely
your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my
life, (God's love, mercy, grace, forgiveness, protection, honor, supply,
peace ... chasing after me!!)
and I will live in the house of the
Lord forever. (This is where I will live - in God's love &
protection - right here, right now, and forever.)
May 8, 2014: A quote from
After God's Own Heart
by Mike Bickle. "We nibble on so many meaningless things that our
hunger for meaningful things gets lost like a single piece of confetti
in a ticker-tape parade." He is speaking of Mary and Martha and how
there is "one thing" that is needed. We have to get back to the "one
thing."
June 3, 2014: I had to smile as I read over the list of the enemies that were
facing David (Psalm 22): fierce bulls, roaring lions, a pack of dogs, an evil gang.
I know I shouldn't smile, because that's just how I feel when things
aren't going my way. My battles are mostly in my head; David and so many
others around the world, in every age battled against actual enemies. The cure? Lord, YOU are my strength. YOU brought me to birth. YOU listen to my cries for help.
July 12, 2014: Psalm 100 - A great psalm to begin the day or to read in the middle of the day or
to end the day. It's an open invitation to a come-as-you-are
celebration
- shout with joy
- worship with gladness
- come singing with joy
- acknowledge the Lord
- enter with thanksgiving and praise
- give thanks
Why
would I do this - morning, noon, and night and any given moment in
between? Because the Lord is good! His unfailing love continues forever,
and his faithfulness continues to each generation!
August 11, 2014: Psalm 69. What a life David lived. I wallow in crap, but he had every reason for
his "whining." Flood waters up to his neck, sinking in the mire, no
foothold, overwhelming floods - this is what life felt like to David! Is
this what life felt like for Jesus? And perhaps it isn't so strange
that I feel like life on the farm has beaten me up.
(Choosing against "wallowing" is a continuing effort.)
September 11, 2014: Psalm 103. The wind blows, and we are gone -- as though we had never been here
(v16). BUT the love of the Lord remains forever. Throughout the psalms
I've noticed that all-important part of speech (conjunction?): BUT. Here
it is. This is what I think, see, or feel ... BUT! God interrupts our
physical bodies, our thoughts, emotions, memories, expectations, dreams,
and idiosyncrasies. God interrupts the world!
This is not forever, but God
is.
October 1, 2014: Proverbs 1. Do wisdom and discipline naturally lead us to the fear of the Lord? I
don't think worldly, human wisdom and discipline can do it. If I were
more disciplined in my daily life here on the farm, would I be wiser and
fearing the Lord better? What does that even mean? Is it more about
spiritual discipline rather than following a to-do list for the day? Oh,
let me stop with the questions.
(By the way, my questions never stop.)
November 2014: I didn't do my online journal during November, because I was spending the whole month online with National Novel Writing Month.
So, for a smile, here's my note from October 31: A worthy wife is a crown for her husband (Proverbs 12:4). I hope I am a crown for
Weldon. I "do" a lot (or, profess to doing a lot, much of which he
probably doesn't care about), but is that what this verse is talking
about? Do I support him, believe in him, encourage him? Yes, I do! And
because he loves me as I am, I think I'm a crown :) Do I love him as he
is? I'm learning :) Thank God, I'm learning.
December 29, 2014: Proverbs 29. "Fools vent their anger, but the wise
quietly hold it back" (v11). Even the wise can be angry! My thoughts
immediately went to that day when I blew up at Weldon for commenting on
the dying houseplants and trying to be helpful. My response? "Mind your
own damn business!" Later, even though we had to laugh, I saw how
foolish my outburst was. Everyone gets angry, but it's the fool who lets
it rip. Verse 20: "There is more hope for a fool than for someone who
speaks without thinking."
So, there's my year in a nutshell. I hope your year has been as delightful (and nutty) as mine! Here is our hope and assurance for the New Year 2015:
For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the LORD
as the waters cover the sea.
Habakkuk 2:14